sooo, today it is raining a beautiful rain and i am sheltered by the roof of my new house, my pets are causing a lot of ruckus and i will be getting ready for work shortly. all of this concludes all of my mixed up feelings...this is my home now and my life. a bit surreal, but great. after a good discussion with my best friend last night i will now allow myself to actually live. it is a funny thing when things aren't going right all because subconsciously I'm not allowing it to go right. hmm.